There's a time for every game, when the player grows tired and places it onto the shelf of games that are destined to never be played again. Well, I believe it's already that time for Black Ops. Of course there will be times where I feel the crave to go back to this game and play a couple rounds, but my addiction for this hyped up first person shooter has died down, and way too soon.
Why? Well, I have high confidence in my skills on Call of Duty, which means I have extremely high expectations on how I compare against other highly skilled players. I recently had a 176 win streak, planning on climbing to 200. I was actually hoping to find a good challenge, so after about the 100th win, I decided to stick with a full party and constantly play lots of Headquarters, which I believe gives the most points, as well as having lots of parties participating in the playlist. With a full party of 6, we were all finally matched up with one of the toughest challenges I had yet to face, especially with a talented group of people by my side. We happened to lose three times in a row in all rounds of Headquarters. It took a lot of energy out of me to stay focused on the game, so I took a long break afterwards. Since then, I decided that I've put enough time in this game to measure my highest potential, and I'm simply not satisfied. People may differ and tell me to just play the game to have fun, but being competitive and proving to myself to be one of the best is my idea of fun. Don't get me wrong -- this game is good! There's not much I would change about this game. I just think there isn't much I can do to accomplish my goal of "being the best". This is how I'm going to deal with it. Besides, there are other games to be played. I'm eventually going to flip this one over sooner or later, right?
Summary for those who don't want to read: I don't think I'm good enough. Screw this game!
If you haven't already noticed, my lifelong hobby of gaming is slowly beginning to lose the magic that made me play them in the first place. Maybe it's time to give up my childhood and find a new hobby? I'm considering honing my Japanese language skills as much as I can, save up, and possibly study in Japan (or just do a homestay and have tons of fun). Being fluent in Japanese means I can play all the import games I've always wanted to try. I'd probably be one of the only English-speaking streamers on JTV that would do commentary on dating sims. Sounds fun, doesn't it? Alright, my hands are freezing right now.
If you haven't already, be sure to follow my alternate broadcast channel for anime @ www.justin.tv/animoogle. I stopped using it for a couple months, but since my main channel was recently suspended, I had no choice but to temporarily cast on my anime channel. I just now realized how chill the chat can be without all the morons from my Black Ops casts, and it's a lot more enjoyable. I feel that since it's already established as an anime channel, I don't have to worry about haters whining about my choice of music. It's quite refreshing being able to focus on talking to my dedicated fans. Even though I got more viewers casting anime on the iMoogle channel, I fear that DMCA will eventually strike my main account and possibly closing the channel permanently for repeat violations. Remember that iMoogle is a producer account, which receives more publicity since we have our own directory for viewers to browse. This creates an even bigger risk of being taken down.
I'm sure migrating the anime fans that still don't know about AniMoogle won't be a huge problem. I'll have to spread the word often. I may also use this channel as an idle channel -- for when I sleep or when I'm at work. I'm a broadcast addict, and I feel much more comfortable being connected with the viewers by casting live. Plus fans of the channel, who rarely have trouble getting along, can have a place to chat or be able to drop a couple messages for me. I like keeping the chat log open all day and scrolling through it once I get the chance, so don't be shy.
One more thing: I'm always looking to improve the broadcast, as well as this blog! Leave any ideas or suggestions you may have in the comments below. What should I add to the blog? What should I post more often? You know, stuff like that.
Thanks for all your support!
Looks like GomTV is finally tracking down on broadcasters who are re-streaming their GSL matches live. iMoogle is temporarily suspended for 24 hours, the same punishment I got for re-streaming the StarCraft II matches at BlizzCon 2010, that were free to watch. SUCH MISFORTUNE! I don't want my main channel to get banned for repeat offenses of the ToS, so I'll most likely stop casting GSL. Never fear, there's always a FREE low quality stream on GomTV.net, and you can bet there's re-streamers who don't give a crap about DMCA. If you love GSL, don't hesitate to buy the season tickets for $19.95. It's totally worth it.